August 13, 2012

Just Writing | My Aha Moment

Lately I've been contemplating what I want to be when I grow up.

26 years old seems like a pretty good age to start figuring it out, right?

Five years ago I had plans. I was focused.

I was utilizing my degree and choreographing in the dance studio forty hours a week. 

Life was good.

And now? Well, life is better. Much better.

But, it's different.

The past five years of traveling have given me the opportunity to explore other hobbies,

to develop other interests and to tap into other parts of myself that I wouldn't have found otherwise,

but I'm tired of being a drifter, in the sense that I drift from one "thing" to the next to the next.

Until I have dance in my life again I am certain that I will always be trying to fill that void, 

but until we have a bit more stability in our life and location I do not want to teach.

It's been an emotional time for me trying to figure out just what else it is that I can "be" 

since owning a dance studio or teaching is not in my near future.

Should I utilize my wedding planning certificate? 

Should I focus on my writing?

Sometimes it crosses my mind that I'd really love to be a personal trainer, too.

(until I snap out of that quickly and remember that I love double chocolate brownies.)

Trying to find my calling while following a different map than the one I had drawn for myself has been hard.

There have been twists and turns turns, speed bumps, and detours, 

crossroads, pot holes and stop signs along my journey,

but when I pulled over and took the time to smell the roses and glimpse at the panoramic view...

 I figured it out. 

My Aha Moment.

I'm excited for a fresh start...a focus.

And if I fall on my face? Then I fall on my face.

But I find no failure in embracing something that allows my personality, creativity and authentic self to shine.

Stay tuned.

What do you see in your panoramic view?
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  1. I followed you and I just started a blog, it's dutch. But you could use translate of course. Following would mean alot to me! (I have a blog hop atm)

  2. tune me in please! great post :) love the quotes!

  3. I spent my childhood KNOWING what I wanted to be - I wanted to serve in the US Military. At 17, I enlisted in the USAF. I served for 4+ years, before blowing out my knee; I spent the rest of my TOD recuperating from one surgery after the other; and thus I was ineligible for re-enlistment. Dream CRUSHED.
    I'd never planned on going to college; I was going to be a "lifer" - do my 25 years of service, "retire" at 42, THEN decide what I'd do with the rest of my life... Well, college hit hard & fast, but I muddled through... without that experience, I'd have never found my calling - being an athletic trainer. Another life setback (head-on car accident and many more surgeries)... and now I'm a stay-at-home mom, wife and part-time trainer. I often think about catching up on necessary courses and taking the state board exam to be either a physical therapy assistant or medical assistant - it'd be a lot easier on this old broken body than chasing 17 year old linebackers up and down a football field in the middle of August!... It's not that I'm unhappy doing what I do, but at what point do I realize I'm not cut out for this anymore? Coming home hot, hungry, tired, smelling like feet and grouchy isn't any fun - and I certainly don't do it for the $$ (then again, I never have!)...
    But I think the human experience is ever changing, and as long as our passion & thirst for knowledge is ever present, we don't ever have to "grow up" and our hearts desires will be fulfilled by this, then that, and then the other... If not for all the other experiences I've had in life, the ups, downs, twists & turns, I wouldn't be where I am, and I wouldn't be as happy as I am, either.
    You just have to be home when opportunity knocks. :)
    If any of that made any sense...

  4. Exciting!!!! Can't wait to hear all about it! :)

  5. that first quote is one of my favorite!!


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