March 25, 2013

That's A Wrap.

Dear Husband, You have 24 hours to act on this message:

Welp, the 2012-2013 hockey season is officially over. 

We will be packing up (yes, again) and heading home to Massachusetts for the summer. 

Solidified flights are still TBA, but my heart is happy.

European hockey is a funny thing - guys start resigning with their team or sign with other teams elsewhere in as early as December/January for the following season. 

TJ has yet to do so.

And I'm okay with that.

After six seasons and dozens of moves, I'm finally okay with not knowing where in the world we will be living a few months from now. 

I've finally learned that I cannot control one thing in my life - and I guess developing this acceptance is one thing that I can be thankful for as this season comes to a close.

TJ and I tried to control a lot of things this season. I've never written the following on my blog before because I didn't want to sound like a "bragger," but TJ had six different offers over the summer. Three in the States, and three in Europe. TJ tried to buy time with every single coach, claiming that he wasn't thinking about hockey contracts until after the wedding. 

But that was a lie. 

In reality, we were waiting on the call from Orlando, and decided that if we didn't hear from them by the wedding, that TJ would sign elsewhere. 

And wouldn't you know it, Orlando called the very first night of our honeymoon. We thought for sure that this was going to be the best hockey season ever ... but that quickly went to shit.

TJ and I sometimes wonder if the same situation would have happened had he just taken one of the other offers that came before Florida. It's nice to be able to pass blame on the NHL lockout for being a main factor in the fuckery that quickly became our life this season ... but we just don't know.

All I do know is that I'm glad that TJ had a job, because so many guys ended up without one this year.

A few people have told me that they think that I'm so brave for keeping myself together through all of the adversities that we've faced since October. But to be honest - I haven't been strong. I've carried a lot of bitterness in my heart this season, and I'm so relieved to finally be able to put this year behind us and move on.

I'm looking forward to whatever the future has in store for us ... but first, I'm focusing on enjoying today, tomorrow, and every other day of this offseason.

Peace out 2012-2013.


  1. "I've finally learned that I cannot control one thing in my life" A TO THE EFFING MEN. But we can control our reactions to those things, and I like your response to it. I like it a lot. It's real and it's human and it's beautiful. I wish happy things for you soon, dear, and have a feeling good things WILL happen.


  2. I can't wait to see where this next step takes you all! Maybe, just maybe, we'll get to cross paths if you're in the Boston area when we go up there a ton this summer :)

  3. I am happy for you that you get to go home. I can only imagine how hard it must have been not being able to be there through these hard times! Can't wait to hear where you guys will be moving soon! Hugs xxx

  4. Good things will happen for you all! :)

  5. I haven't read your blog long enough to know what's going on, but hang in there!

  6. The best is yet to come as they say! Welcome back to New England in a few weeks! It's pretty darn cold up here. :)

    xoxo M

  7. Whew, well at least you get to travel!!

  8. My boyfriend plays Arena Football....I understand a lot of these feelings! Not knowing where I will be next kills me. I am such a planner. I worry about him signing with his current team again or being suddenly traded. I hope someday to have a great attitude like you do!

    You are certainly an inspiration!


  9. Glad you're heading home! I agree with Shelley you got to travel which is always a plus. I applaud you for being so positive when the going got tough!

  10. aw girl everything will pan the meantime enjoy the downtime!

  11. Glad things are settling down for you. Love that e-card! Lol. ;)

  12. You are so right! I need to remember this "no-control" thing in my own life and just live each day as it comes. Wishing you a spring/summer of fun and happy times.

  13. I always told my husband I didn't want to be a military wife because I wanted a stable life, job, future...he didn't join the army as an officer but went to work in private industry instead. The money has been better but we've moved 3 times in the last 4 years (not that that compares to your life). I've given up an $80,000 job, had a kid, and dragged two dogs and two guinea pigs all over the country. The one thing I've learned (if anything) is to give up control. When I pray I no longer ask for specifics. I simply ask that god make everything "okay". I still get frustrated with the unknown, I still hate not knowing where we'll be in 5 years but since giving up a bit of control (with God anyway) I do feel a little bit better. You've had a horrible year but I've also learned (in life and in my marathon training) that easy years (or training runs) teach us very little...we already knew how to handle those. It's the worst years where your heart breaks and your soul aches that teach us the most. I love your blog. I think you are an amazing woman! Best of luck to you Brutus, and TJ.

  14. Your blog is so cute!! I love that ecard about shaving! haha

  15. Man, I am in the same boat right now! Not with hockey, although that would be my husband's dream, but with the military. My husband is stoked to be moving again so soon (because there are NO adult hockey leagues out here) and I'm up for whatever comes next.
    Best of luck to you and your hubby!


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